I've cut my left arm, both thighs, chest and stomach, but refuse to cut my right arm for future bottom surgery
But I really hate having an empty arm. I think it looks ugly+ recent second thoughts 💀 (photo for censor)
I remember being SAd at a party while I was "sleeping" and I went to cry to my mom about it But she was too drunk to care So I waited for her to sleep so I can sob in her arms while she was passed out because I just wanted to feel the warmth and comfort of her arms
Thru out my early childhood whenever my Mom was passed out drunk, I'd forcibly wrap her arms around myself because that was the only way I'd get any form of affection from her
Crazy how BOTH of my sisters are HUGE ON MENTAL HEALTH AWARENESS
But when it comes to me they can't ever seem to understand. I will NEVER open up to them ever again
They always come up with bullshit ass excuses "yougottapushyourselfbleeehhhhhhh"
Stfu.
I need to start walking more often. It was the main reason I was able to feel decent how I just feel like a pig. I hate getting up though I've only been getting around 3k maximum steps this month 💀
My sister definitely knows about my arms
My mom stormed in the restroom while my pants were down so she might've seen my thighs
She ended up yelling at me but I wont get into the details
I'm gonna force myself to go to school tmr so I don't have to deal with my mom
My family is back on the mindset of me "not deserving / having to earn" food soooo let's see how much I'll lose
I went grocery shopping recently so I still have food options available but I'm gonna limit myself more to make them last
FINALLY NOT BEING FORCE FED ANYMORE!! :D
My sister knows EVERYTHING
She asked if I had a scale and why (hidden in old backpack inside a box)
She's seen my scars (I wear longsleeves besides when I sleep)
She knows my notifications & asks about them (usually off)
She NOTICES EVERYTHING
BUT I HIDE EVERYTHING WTF???
i’m back to drinking my white monster every morning already i love white monster , who will drink a white monster and celebrate my discharge from the hospital with me ? cheers to all ♡ ♡ ♡
I hate when I send a photo of myself to my bf and he doesn't start glazing.. (-、-)
It's a punch to the gut of "oouuwww he doesn't think I look good... |_・).."
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