NihilNode @NihilNode

Things have not gotten better.

There's nothing worth seeing here. Nothing worth living for. No one worth knowing.

Nothing tears me up like knowing that throughout my life there hasn't been one person who I haven't managed to let down in some way. I really hoped I would be better than this.

Not a day goes by that I don't think about the ones I've wronged over the years.

Know this, old friends. My former self - that naive coward - tried to keep me from the world, hidden behind a mask. Remorseless, I tore out from under its skin. Great red antlers have begun to sprout from my skull. Wait and see. For I am capable of much more than he ever was.

I AM NOT ENOUGH

"Black Raven, Why do you circle over me? You won't have your prey Black Raven, I'm not yours"

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"Olen edelleen, olen edelleen... Olen edelleen täällä! Olen edelleen, olen edelleen... Olen edelleen maan päällä!" Stam1na - Gaian Lapsi

I don't know which of my personalities has taken over as of late but it's getting shit done and I'm not complaining.

"Now I need your help with everything that I do I don't want to lie, I've been relying on you" "I'm sick and I'm tired too I can admit, I am not fireproof I feel it burning me I feel it burning you I hope I don't murder me I hope I don't burden you If I do, I do..."

No point in sugarcoating it. Lately, each day has felt more hopeless than the last. Getting through this unscathed is out of the question. But, I've made some promises and I intend to keep them. I won't get better for my own sake, but... For the sake of those I care about. 👍

"All those things that you desire You will find here, in the fire." Ghost - Absolution

For some, nine in the morning is too early to start drinking. Happy Friday.

"Sooner or later The sun's going down So do me a favor And please stick around..." LORN - YESTERDAY'S PAIN

"Nothing can save me now. It's what I believe."

"All are not the same But three shall be as one Freedom in the flame The end has just begun Strands may break alone But twisted make a braid Together on their own The journey shall be made The journey shall be..." @cfreq @Zeromina youtube.com/watch?v=TAWmSz…

"Kun kaikki tuntuu turhalta ja mitä rakensin ei kestä En tiedä ketä varten edes yritän Ja tämä ahdistus, se kasvaa vaikka sitä kuinka koitan estää Nyt loppusuoralle tulleeni käsitän" Valonkantajat - Loppusuora