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I know I have a new future I must work hard for it and do my best. But it’s hard to accept the new future when you’re still in the past. I was hoping that my future was as I planned. With the person who I saw my future with. But in the end I must accept the reality.

I must keep going forward. I must live a new life. I must accept the reality. I must control my thoughts. I must control my heart.

I really missed the old days, I missed us.

move on. you're someone's soulmate

كنت أتمنى تكون جنبي في هالليلة، نشارك لحظاتها سوا، بس الظروف كان لها رأي ثاني… وكل شي جميل كنت أتمناه، صار بيني وبينك مسافة ما تنقاس بالكلام.

كلما هممت أن أطوي صفحات الماضي، وأغسل قلبي من وجع الأمس، امتدت يد الشوق لتقلب الذكريات، وتبعثر الندم بين السطور. أحاول أن أسامح، أن أنسى، أن أُطفئ الحنين… لكن الذكرى تأبى إلا أن تُزهر في قلبي من جديد.

"Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead"

I know that you are to blame for everything. But I can't stop blaming myself because it's hard to forgive you.

اعاتب نفسي و الغلط مب مني.

بوجودها اليوم كان يمر كانه ثواني، و ببعدها اليوم احسه عام.

كل ما بغيت اغير روتيني و اتناسى, يطلع لي شي و يذكرني بالواقع الي احاول اني اتناساه.

في ناس يكونون عزيزين على قلبك, و بسبب افعالهم تبدا تكرههم, ولاكن بسبب معزتهم فقلبك مايهون عليك تكرههم, و هني يبدا قلبك يعاني و تعيش ف دوامه الكره و الحب و الغدره و المعزه.

Recently I lost part of myself, since that day I haven't known who I am and how I was living before. I just feel emptiness, sadness, confusion, and hate myself. The worst thing is that I can't do anything or fix things; all I can do is accept what life chooses for me.

I want to forgive and forget, but I can't

Most people don't focus on their mistakes, they just want to find your mistakes so they can put all the blame on you.

they forgot all the mistakes they made and I forgive them just to hold this relationship, but in the end, they put all the blame on me just for one mistake.

I'm tired of taking all the blame, of fixing every problem we face. I did my best, but in the end, I took all the blame.

I want to shut my mind off and live.