You are not lazy or incapable of doing the tasks that are required to get you to where you wanna go. You are afraid that if you gave it your very best, it would turn into something way better than you could have ever hoped for. Realise you're comfort is not your true home. It's the crossroads, where you can either keep doing what you have been doing and keep getting the same results. OR You decide that the pain of staying is far greater than the pain of change. I mean, at the end of the day, all you gotta do is just decide.