⋆✴︎ex altiora⋆⊹ ࣪ ˖˚ @sournectarines

i relapsed a few weeks ago and for the first time in my life, i don't want to repeat it. it felt so fucking awful. none of the comfort and calm afterwards arrived, i stopped after a particular styro snapped be back to myself and i thought what am i fucking doing?

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⋆✴︎ex altiora⋆⊹ ࣪ ˖˚ @sournectarines

3 months ago

i relapsed after so long and cut my thigh so low im so dumb why did i do that its fucking summer and once again everyone will be so disappointed and i will be the girl with a problem again and it didnt even fucking help me at all im so fucking embarrassed i regret it so much

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atlas📜🕸🕷| the most tastefull|2025 @illdoasiamtold

6 months ago

Yeah it was that serious

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⋆✴︎ex altiora⋆⊹ ࣪ ˖˚ @sournectarines

6 months ago

today's wieiad + undocumented soy iced coffee. today fucking sucked, a small event triggered an anxious pattern in my stupid brain. no appetite. on a t-break. i miss my ex so much. help

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⋆✴︎ex altiora⋆⊹ ࣪ ˖˚ @sournectarines

6 months ago

i didn't finish my food, because i'm full. i closed it up, put it aside,thinking "i don't want it rn, i'm full. if i want some later, i'll have later, if i don't, i'll have it tmrw." with my eating habits always being all or nothing, this makes me happy. choose recovery, always.

⋆✴︎ex altiora⋆⊹ ࣪ ˖˚ @sournectarines

6 months ago

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⋆✴︎ex altiora⋆⊹ ࣪ ˖˚ @sournectarines

6 months ago

even if i'm still here, even if i always wish to lose weight and it's never enough, i have made such progress in recovery, even recovered for a time.

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IVY @Iamivy05

7 months ago

yes toxic relationships are hard but do you know what else is hard? your first healthy relationship after a toxic one. no one talks about how hard it is to unlearn all the toxic behaviors you adapted as coping mechanisms. how hard it is to convince yourself that you're safe now.

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⋆✴︎ex altiora⋆⊹ ࣪ ˖˚ @sournectarines

6 months ago

life is weird again. time to rewatch euphoria.

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⋆✴︎ex altiora⋆⊹ ࣪ ˖˚ @sournectarines

6 months ago

hey edtwt rate my outfit and also tell me if i look skinny, fit or average. not fishing but genuinely curious how ppl percieve me

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⋆✴︎ex altiora⋆⊹ ࣪ ˖˚ @sournectarines

6 months ago

zoology notes serving #drugtwt

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⋆✴︎ex altiora⋆⊹ ࣪ ˖˚ @sournectarines

6 months ago

broke up with my guy today. been crying on & off. omad was chicken strip avocado wrap. high on xan & codeine cuz i ran out of penjamin. my cat just farted in my face.

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⋆✴︎ex altiora⋆⊹ ࣪ ˖˚ @sournectarines

6 months ago

WHERE DID MADS GO

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⋆✴︎ex altiora⋆⊹ ࣪ ˖˚ @sournectarines

6 months ago

absolutely baked out of my mind cuz my penjamin was almost empty, like there was almost no visible liquid. keyword; almost. i hit it like 3 times and it was NOT yet empty.