Blue Girl Grey @withinwhile

An offering of letters to no one, all the while, calmly drowning in this sea of words. Interpret as you wish. Sometimes @Ababy183 A drop in the ocean. Joined August 2023

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Blue Girl Grey @withinwhile

a month ago

How do I do this? Again. Me: "There are so many people here." Her: "Where were all of these people when she was so lonely, so depressed?" Me: "Depression pushes people away, Mom." Her: "Well, she brought them all together today." She asks me who everyone is. I don't know.

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Blue Girl Grey @withinwhile

a month ago

Dressed two hours early to lay her to rest. More death. Always death. Sipping my coffee and watching the birds, watching for life. Searching for life. Hating you for writing her like me. And the next moment, not caring. Love her harder. While I bury another.

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Blue Girl Grey @withinwhile

a month ago

I close my eyes at night to keep the tears inside.

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Blue Girl Grey @withinwhile

a month ago

He loved me quietly. Kept his distance. Then from afar. He loved me smaller and smaller. Until all he could hear was my silence. And all he could see were my fingerprints left on his skin.

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Blue Girl Grey @withinwhile

a month ago

A list of wants whittled to one. A want for the deep, dark of the sea.

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Blue Girl Grey @withinwhile

a month ago

I scratch this skin trying to quiet the want only he seems to be able to soothe. The sting of his hand on the flesh of my need. I beg. I beg. He won't hear me, until I deserve. Daddy, I ache...

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Blue Girl Grey @withinwhile

a month ago

I understand now. I can hear it. San Diego, your mirror, that feeling I had, and how I was nothing.

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Blue Girl Grey @withinwhile

2 months ago

I show him my vulnerability. He tells me I'm beautiful. What a simple way to live. What a perfect kiss.

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Blue Girl Grey @withinwhile

2 months ago

I loved the way you called me yours. You said I was made for you. But possession was for a moment. Just a toy. To break when you were bored.

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drifting... @rottedwithin

8 months ago

My garden, unattended. Now a cathedral of decay.

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drifting... @rottedwithin

2 months ago

@withinwhile Digging through the grave of us. Picking up bones and saying "let this death be now our life"

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Blue Girl Grey @withinwhile

2 months ago

My life's purpose is to feed the soil. I'll be lost until then.

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Blue Girl Grey @withinwhile

2 months ago

I've dropped the pen. It was her you chose. And her. I'm no Gatsby. I see that light wasn't mine to reach.

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drifting... @rottedwithin

2 months ago

They take pieces of me like souvenirs A song I showed them A poem I wrote once A part of me they’ll give to someone else.. who will never know whose mouth it came from

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ashley noelle @ash_isawitch

2 months ago

I wanted to be breath like air the deep inhale you take in the morning to move to face it all to get through it to remind you you’re still here alive and awake even if you don’t desire it anymore to fill your lungs to capacity would be to occupy a space inside you like love.

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Blue Girl Grey @withinwhile

2 months ago

I have never been quite right for anyone. And I'm always wrong. And it's always my fault. So, I go to bed, pull layers of covers on top of me, weighing me down, tuck my arms under, hands beneath my chin, knees bent to my heart, ocean sounds, and hope the nightmares go easy.